Light at the End of the Tunnel
As many of you know, I just had my third baby three months ago. She is such a blessing in our family-this I know. But I'm really not a fan of this stage in post-partum. The stage where I feel almost normal but I definitely do NOT look normal. (My pants practically laugh out loud every time I try to pull them over my hips. Or maybe they groan. Anyway!) Also, at this stage I start sleep training my babies, and although the payoff is totally worth it, the work is rather tedious. This is the stage I start to get frustrated, almost antsy for my life to go back to how it was before I had a newborn. (Let me reiterate-I'm so in love with her. Honest.)
Sometimes I feel like I just need a change. Or maybe I need things to slow down. Or let's be honest, it very well may be my hormones are still a bit nutty. At any rate, it's not an easy time for me. But I do have moments when I remember that this stage doesn't last forever. Things will improve at some point. It's like I tell my husband, "I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel. I just can't see it yet." It helps that I've been through this before, and I've lived to tell the tale.
This reminds me of something our dear friend Amanda Dickson talked about. How change is inevitable. It's constant. We know things won't remain as they are, simply because change will always be waiting for us around the next corner.
Now, this is definitely not the hardest thing I've gone through, but I think there are two lessons here that can be applied to our most difficult times in life;
1) It will get better. It has to. Because that's how change works.
2) There is something to be said for knowing that someone has been through the same thing and has "lived to tell the tale". Although there's a good deal of faith that is required of us, I think it's so comforting to know that in my darkest times, our Savior felt the same things I have felt. And He knows how to help me through this. Even when my faith isn't strong enough.
So if you're going through a rough patch-hang on! Change is a comin'. Even if you can't see it, there is a light at the end of that tunnel.
Right now, I'm just hoping that light involves 8 hours of sleep.